Steam Flash/Flare.H

Steam Flash/Flare.H


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1 day ago @ Twilightsparklerules - DEAL WITH IT! · 0 replies · +1 points


That's good, I'm glad you're taking it seriously.

Small goals. It.. does make it slightly easier, but often even the small stuff I find really tough to get done.
Lack of willpower is a big problem for me. I can't seem to get myself to do stuff I know I should do. I often struggle to get myself to do things I actually do want to do, like drawing or playing a game. It's not nice at all.
I know I can do things better though. For example, I was tired of sometimes going 1-3 weeks without drawing anything over the past handful of years.. so at the start of this year I set a goal to just draw once every day. It doesn't have to be a full sketch, even just working more on a drawing I've already started is good enough.
And.. I've actually managed it so far. I've done some worthwhile drawing once for every day of this year.
It's a small thing, and it's related to drawing so it's not helping me fix arguably more important problems, but it's something at least.

I know I shouldn't get too caught up worrying about my progression, but since I know right now that I could likely be progressing a considerable amount faster with just a few handfuls of more effort/focus.. I can't help but get a little annoyed at myself for not making that little bit more of a serious effort. I'm not going to try and push myself to get super intense about learning art and put 100% of my effort and attention on that.. even though I know that'd be the more efficient option. Because that'd be really hard to get into. But I could be doing at least a little more than what I'm doing now.. I just want to nudge myself to put a bit more energy into my artistic progression.

Talking to other artists of various experience definitely helps. I began to do that more late last year and have done it a bit this year too, but I struggle to talk to people. Over the past 2-3 months I've just suddenly had a much harder time speaking to anyone online and I'm not sure why I've started to have such a harder time with it recently.
I hate it. I'm trying to work up the energy to push past all of that stuff and just message a few of those artists.

I'm sure a better, more organised plan of learning (what to learn, for how long I should make it a priority before moving on to the next thing, where to go for this stuff) and a better schedule of when to draw and how long a session should last, would be a big help.
But.. I've tried to create that before and it never works because I either don't know how to structure it, or I have an idea of what I should practice/learn but am incapable of sticking to a schedule.
I keep wondering if I should take an actual proper art course, online, because that may have better success getting me into a schedule. I'm not sure.
At the very least I really, really want to push myself towards going through the Drawabox guide. If I could start that this week that'd be great, but going through that anytime before the year ends would be nice. The only issue is.. getting myself to stick with it until the end.

It really helps to talk about this, even if it's largely the same issues I've been talking about having for years.
Thank you, I really appreciate your message. <3

6 days ago @ Twilightsparklerules - DEAL WITH IT! · 2 replies · +2 points

Ah, I didn't check in for a few days. Hi.
Yeah, it'd be nice if it was more active, but everyone's off doing life things and sometimes conversations between people can fade in time.
Unfortunate, but it happens and it's ok.

I too have been having a hard time the past handful of months with regards to talking/replying to friends so I can understand the late-ness.
That's good to hear you're doing alright. I do hope that despite the reduction in restrictions you are still going to be careful not to get/pass the sickness. At least for another few months. I'll not get into it too much but I really think we should all be put under heavy restrictions still for a while longer as I don't believe it has been long enough yet.
Obviously if you have to be out/work for a worthwhile reason then that's fair.
I just hope you and those you care about keep yourself and others safe from getting sick.

As for your question.. I'm doing not so good. Not just because of the sickness although that is a factor.
But because I've been struggling more and more to talk to others over the past few months. And because I've been having even more trouble focusing on getting stuff done. And my sleeping pattern is pretty bad. And the newest thing which is really starting to bring me down is how for the past 5-6 weeks my progress/experience with art has been weighed down with an annoying issue.

I was starting to feel more positive with how art learning was going, and I'd been suggested to work more on a specific aspect of it. So I began to look into that and just as I started to practice that art fundamental, it seemingly made me worse at drawing the way I'd previously been doing it. So.. for the past month and a half I've been trying my best to not despair and just keep drawing and thinking that soon I'll find my way back to being able to draw at the same quality as before, but with the added experience of that fundamental aspect of art making what I create even better.
I'm surprised I've managed to not fall into despair for 5+ weeks but.. I really didn't think it'd take this long to get back into my usual consistent drawing quality and it's really starting to affect my mood.

So yeah, that's my more detailed answer to "how are you?"
It feels nice to just get all of that out of my head.

14 weeks ago @ Twilightsparklerules - DEAL WITH IT! · 4 replies · +2 points

A few of us are still around.
I'd post here more but.. I don't really know what to post most of the time.

I'm doing ok. Not great, but not bad.
I've been keeping up with drawing often which is nice.

How are you doing Apex?

35 weeks ago @ Twilightsparklerules - DEAL WITH IT! · 0 replies · +1 points

Yay for stumbling randomly into places! :P

Thanks. I'm still feeling generally positive. Although I'm a bit worried that my mood will take another dive anytime now.. which also probably makes the chance of it happening increase. But.. for now.. positive! Happy. Trying to keep that mood going for as long as possible.
Thank you! It means a lot to hear that. <3 I'm going to try and put more hours into this and have some kind of daily routine so I hope my improvement moving forward picks up the pace a bit, and that I don't find myself progressing at a discouragingly slow speed still. I know learning art takes years, but I'm certain I could be learning faster than I have been and that's one of the main things that's upsetting me currently. My current positive mood and recent artwork are definitely helping but the increase in attention and a schedule should hopefully reduce that feeling. Receiving support from people helps too, and it's definitely appreciated. :)

35 weeks ago @ Twilightsparklerules - DEAL WITH IT! · 1 reply · +1 points

Thank you. :)

35 weeks ago @ Twilightsparklerules - DEAL WITH IT! · 3 replies · +4 points

The Main Seven!
Really happy with this one. Many hours of work, but still much less than it could have been.
My first time learning and adding perspective, drawing multiple characters in one scene and having a go at creating a magical effect.
Considering the time just one character can take me, the fact I've made 7 in less than x5 the length of that, while also doing those other things.. I'm a bit surprised how quick this took me. At least a third of the total time taken was understanding the perspective. I definitely have a big task ahead of me learning that art fundamental. Anyway uh.. here's the art! Enjoy! [Click picture for source and original size]

36 weeks ago @ Twilightsparklerules - DEAL WITH IT! · 2 replies · +2 points

You're welcome. :)
Heh, coming to this place was just a random decision. I remember talking or seeing Flare talk and hovering over his username. Seeing this place as one of his links I figured "yeah, I like Twilight, ok I'll take a look at this place."

That's good to hear. Nice that things are going smoothly. It doesn't always taste nice, but when it does I love tea. <3
I've been.. up and down. I don't think me talking about the "down" will be anything new that you've not heard me say before, and since I'm currently feeling at least a bit "up" I'd say I'm managing fairly alright.

I've been getting more focused into my artistic goals the last couple of months, and I'm feeling like I've recently started to make a bit more progress towards being an amateur artist instead of a beginner so that's making me happy.
Hopefully soon I'll have something to show for it on my DeviantArt. (And I'll also post all my "finished" art here too)

37 weeks ago @ Twilightsparklerules - DEAL WITH IT! · 0 replies · +2 points

I'm glad you managed to find fun and friendship here, and despite the apparent quietness, there's at least a few of us that are still around here.

You're very welcome, and thank you for being our friend Huskie. I do intend to keep up communication either here, or elsewhere, with the friends of TSR, so I also look forward to making more friendship chronicles moving ahead. <3

How are you?

37 weeks ago @ Twilightsparklerules - DEAL WITH IT! · 4 replies · +2 points

Thank you for being one of our friends Apex. :)

How are you?

50 weeks ago @ Twilightsparklerules - DEAL WITH IT! · 0 replies · +1 points

Thanks Ada. :)

"Mare Mayor" in their world is the same as being called "Woman Mayor" as a human name here.. it feels too weird for me.
(Also the name would be weird if she one day ended up not being the mayor anymore.)