Steam Flash/Flare.H

Steam Flash/Flare.H

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2 days ago @ Twilightsparklerules - DEAL WITH IT! · 0 replies · +1 points

Good to hear. Boring sounds not so bad as long as the alternative is worse, but it can be depressing after a while.
Talking to others is really important.. even if it's just a little bit, regularly.
I have an idea of how to do things in a way that reduces stress.. but what's harder than starting to do that, is maintaining it.
Weeks ago I managed to get myself to do things differently, and it did feel better.. but it didn't last long.
It took me maybe having some kind of stress overload that scared me into it, then when I began to feel better I struggled to keep it up.
What's worse is that I know what I should do.. but I can't get myself to do it. There's no downsides, no good reason why I shouldn't.

Same goes for art. But I guess shyness is also a factor there, to ask others questions, most of which I feel are silly to ask or annoying to keep asking over and over due to me not realising/understanding things sooner.

You're being helpful, definitely. I'm just glad that I can talk to people who care... but.. I really need to do that more often.

2 weeks ago @ Twilightsparklerules - DEAL WITH IT! · 0 replies · +2 points

Sorry for not responding to replies here for months or posting anything. I've continued to have a lot of difficulty talking to people. I don't know why exactly, it just began at the start of the year and hasn't really improved since.

Over the last few months I've been getting more upset at my lack of artistic progress, and along with some other things I'd rather not get into, I think it's been making it hard to focus on doing other things like pushing myself to talk more.

I'd like to.. I would. I also would like to share more art too.. but at the moment most of it doesn't feel worth sharing, not to mention that it's all just practice sketches, as I can't seem to progress past the sketch or clean line-art phase for any actual finished artwork that I want to make.

Well.. I did manage to do this recently, which feels better than most of the practice sketches I've done in weeks, maybe months.
So here, a practice Applejack. Click it for a bigger view, the reference used, and.. basically a bit of a ramble. Felt good to just get it out.

2 weeks ago @ Twilightsparklerules - DEAL WITH IT! · 2 replies · +2 points

Still trying to recover from the metaphorical hole I fell into at the start of the year.
I can't seem to get myself back into talking to people more regularly.

Also I'm feeling more stuck than I have done before with getting better at art.
So that isn't helping my mental state.
Art is worth it though.. I do feel better having that interest and wanting to pursue it.
But when I have no idea how to move forward and make progress.. it isn't nice, especially when it lasts for months.

I'm.. I'm trying not to worry or stress about things.
I don't really know how well that is going though.

So.. not great. I'm doing not great.
Thanks for asking though, and checking in here.
I do still visit fairly often, but as I said I'm having trouble talking to people.
With this post I thought I'd take it as an opportunity to force myself to talk again, try and get back into it.
How are you?

19 weeks ago @ Twilightsparklerules - DEAL WITH IT! · 2 replies · +3 points

Hi.
I'm uh... I'm still around.

Since the start of the year my struggles with keeping up communication and just getting stuff done in general seems to have got worse.
I feel like I should be able to deal with this problem easier now than in the past.. but the opposite is happening.

I don't really know what to do to fix this issue I'm having. I'm just hoping it doesn't continue for long.

41 weeks ago @ Twilightsparklerules - DEAL WITH IT! · 1 reply · +2 points

Happy New Year!
I hope it's a good one for us all.
At least better than the last.
I'm sure it's going to have it's own issues though, so stay strong.
We'll make it through. <3

42 weeks ago @ Twilightsparklerules - DEAL WITH IT! · 1 reply · +1 points

<3

42 weeks ago @ Twilightsparklerules - DEAL WITH IT! · 1 reply · +1 points

Happy Hearths Warming to you all! :)

45 weeks ago @ Twilightsparklerules - DEAL WITH IT! · 1 reply · +2 points

Nice that you managed to find a way around the issue. Still I hope that problem gets sorted out.
I certainly hope the same doesn't start happening for me too.

45 weeks ago @ Twilightsparklerules - DEAL WITH IT! · 4 replies · +2 points

Assuming this reply goes through.. no I don't appear to be having trouble posting here.

Perhaps there's something going on with IntenseDebate?
Hopefully it gets sorted out and the issues stop happening.

I remember years ago having some kind of issue with accounts/posting here. Like.. I had another account at some point.
Not sure if this is that alternate account or the original.

53 weeks ago @ Twilightsparklerules - DEAL WITH IT! · 0 replies · +3 points

It's nice but I really could do with more of that feeling of progress on a more regular basis.
" if you put in the work you’ll be rewarded"
Exactly. I'm NOT putting in the work/effort. I want to but.. it's a real struggle for me.

Thanks. Yeah it's hard.. really hard.
For now I'm managing so I probably won't talk about it more. If that changes though, then I might.
Hopefully it won't get worse to handle.

I think I need a better way to cope with stress. Procrastinating important things because they and/or I are stressful/stressed.. might briefly help.. but then I get more stressed because I spent too long procrastinating when I could have got multiple things done.. and it just gets harder and spirals out of control.
I need to just do things, even if they're stressful.. at least then they're done and I can actually have some stress reduction. That push to just do stuff regardless of how I feel though.. that is a very tough push for me to give myself. I don't even know how I manage to do it sometimes, but I want to be able to do it all the time.

I shouldn't stay this down/stressed/upset/despaired for much longer.
Right now I'm feeling a whole lot of that.. but I'll get back to feeling better soon.
It can't last forever.

Thanks for the encouragement. It helps.