Hopefully things can somewhat go back to normal soon. I have a few things to sort out, such as my relationship status, which is a confusing mess right now, and then I can work on bettering my life.

Thanks. Sorry for the late reply, I took a week off to try to deal with some personal things.

"I will not apologize for simply expediting the inevitable." - Caustic

Things aren't in the clear yet, but for now, I think I'm okay. My thoughts are more clear, I'm calm, and I have hope. I'm not gonna let go of that hope this time. I have my heart set on something and I'm gonna go for it. Hopefully I'll come out on top and I'll be happier than ever.

Hey, Happy. Haven't heard from you in a very long time. Sorry I didn't get back to you earlier, I needed a week alone to sort things out. Things haven't been the best for me.

I feel sick to my stomach from my chest pain.

Captain's log whatever the phoque they usually say entry #7: It's yet another night where I'm feeling lonely and depressed. It hasn't been long since the cancellation of my wedding and breakup, but I still feel as if I've spent an eternity alone. Sitting in this dark room doesn't help either. I've been spending hours looking at r/nicegirls posts and it's actually been kinda depressing. Tried to go back to my game only to realize that my mood had been further killed and I had no desire to keep playing. I tried Shadow of the Tomb Raider, but it's pretty much been the same. I really wish I had friends to talk to, even if just online ones. I've got no connection with anyone anymore. No one to talk to, not even on Discord. Nobody cares to talk to me. My ex is gone, so now I have nobody. Seriously...I just wish I had SOMEONE to talk to. I don't even care if it was over a frickin public match of Call of Duty, that would still be better than what I've got now.

I'd never let one of photography's future stars avoid "handing" in her work.

It's just been a rough year. Almost had my relationship come to an end a few times, I started developing anxiety, I've had depression multiple times throughout the year, I stopped being friends with someone I had been friends with for years, now reducing me to one friend I basically see or hear from once a month (and that ex friend has kinda become his best friend)...just lots of things that did their best to bring me down. Been fighting to the bone to sort out my fiance and I's lives.

I thought things would be better after the terrible Crapmas I had. First day of 2019, eenope.