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7 years ago @ Clever Manka - Election Hangover Open... · 0 replies · +3 points

I don't feel particularly strong or amazing, but thank you--it still feel really good to hear.

7 years ago @ Clever Manka - Election Hangover Open... · 5 replies · +9 points

I'm hoping that some kind of pathway to effective activism emerges soon, because I want to do something too, but right now, I feel a little helpless, knowing that I have no power, no money, no influence.

7 years ago @ Clever Manka - Election Hangover Open... · 2 replies · +8 points

Well, just now I did get to listen to military officer talking to my boss about how people voted for Trump because they felt like the "establishment" was wrongly accusing them of being things they aren't. Like for instance, North Carolina voted for Trump because they resented the establishment accusing them of being bigoted for their bathroom bill when they were just concerned citizens.

To my credit, I did not yell at this man or throw my stapler at his head.

But other than that, it's mostly been fine, except for the fact that everyone here is fine with the results.

7 years ago @ Clever Manka - Election Hangover Open... · 0 replies · +4 points

Thank you so much. And I agree so hard with everything you said.

I'm getting through work, but mostly because I've reached the point of feeling just kind of numb.

7 years ago @ Clever Manka - Election Hangover Open... · 7 replies · +21 points

I'm just almost congratulating myself that I've made it through the first hour and fifty minutes of sitting in an open desk in a very Republican office without starting to cry. I think I'm just on a random cycle of numb/angry/heartbroken right now and nothing feels like it can really be real.

I just keep thinking about my dude sitting on the couch with me last night saying in this quiet shocked voice, "This wasn't supposed to happen. We were supposed to be better than this."

I remember at about a quarter to midnight, turning to look at him and suddenly finding myself sobbing.

And then going to be at about half-past midnight before they called it because we had work in the morning, but he couldn't make himself sleep, so he got up again and went into the other room.

At a little after two in the morning, he came back in and got back into bed and, half-awake, I asked him what had happened. And he just started to cry.

So I guess I have six hours left of not crying at my desk to go now.

7 years ago @ Clever Manka - Tuesday Tumblr Collection · 0 replies · +5 points

Same here. I think that's a lot of the reason I haven't tried too hard to come up with an actual worst-case scenario plan. I'm pretty sure my idea of what that scenario is would end getting improbably dystopian. I'm remaining hopeful about the chances of me really not needing to worry about that, though. (I'm realizing that this election season has been an interesting emotional roller-coaster for someone with depression with a side order of anxiety who also generally tries to fight to be at least tentatively optimistic about things.)

I've got to be at work tomorrow too, so I also have to be asleep around midnight, whether or not I want to be.

7 years ago @ Clever Manka - Tuesday Tumblr Collection · 2 replies · +7 points

God, me too, me too. I don't know that I'll be able to actually convince myself to go to bed while anything is still in suspense. Then again, I'm not sure what I'm going to do if this isn't called in favor of Clinton.

. . . I'm not even sure I'm willing to entertain that alternative as a possibility right now.

7 years ago @ Clever Manka - Tuesday Tumblr Collection · 0 replies · +3 points

Well, I do know that I'm gonna look at all of this Tumblr collection after I get home from voting. I know that's at least on my agenda for tonight. :)

7 years ago @ Clever Manka - Tuesday Tumblr Collection · 5 replies · +5 points

I am voting after work, so I am just jittery and anxious at my desk all day . . .

I have no idea what I'm going to do with myself to keep any semblance from the time after I vote until the time either they announce a winner or I have to force myself to go to bed. (I know that currently my dude has promised to make pierogi and kielbasa for dinner and I've promised to pick up something to drink, so there's that to look forward to at least.)

7 years ago @ Clever Manka - Friday Open Thread · 1 reply · +5 points

It's been a long overly stressful week at work and tomorrow I have a Halloween party to go to. I was pretty lax about getting my costume together, so I'm gonna be Boy George and hope I can wing it with clothes I already own.

Right now, though, I'm just trying to get through the last 3.5 hours of the workday without losing my mind.