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To my credit, I did not yell at this man or throw my stapler at his head.
But other than that, it's mostly been fine, except for the fact that everyone here is fine with the results.
I'm getting through work, but mostly because I've reached the point of feeling just kind of numb.
I just keep thinking about my dude sitting on the couch with me last night saying in this quiet shocked voice, "This wasn't supposed to happen. We were supposed to be better than this."
I remember at about a quarter to midnight, turning to look at him and suddenly finding myself sobbing.
And then going to be at about half-past midnight before they called it because we had work in the morning, but he couldn't make himself sleep, so he got up again and went into the other room.
At a little after two in the morning, he came back in and got back into bed and, half-awake, I asked him what had happened. And he just started to cry.
So I guess I have six hours left of not crying at my desk to go now.
I've got to be at work tomorrow too, so I also have to be asleep around midnight, whether or not I want to be.
. . . I'm not even sure I'm willing to entertain that alternative as a possibility right now.
I have no idea what I'm going to do with myself to keep any semblance from the time after I vote until the time either they announce a winner or I have to force myself to go to bed. (I know that currently my dude has promised to make pierogi and kielbasa for dinner and I've promised to pick up something to drink, so there's that to look forward to at least.)
Right now, though, I'm just trying to get through the last 3.5 hours of the workday without losing my mind.