I can absolutely relate to this post, as I'm sure most people with chronic illness can. It's always nice to read something so relate-able, especially since being sick makes feel like a rare species in my corner of the world. It's inevitable to be frustrated by the limitations, even as I try to take it one day at a time and enjoy the small moments. I hope your flare ends soon and you are able to go for your hike next weekend :)

Really fantastic post! I definitely relate to this perspective - I'm never going to say that I'm glad I developed chronic illnesses, but I think it is much more helpful to focus on the silver linings. I share a lot of the same 'gifts' as you do. I would also add that I have a better relationship to myself. I was always the over-acheiver with the constant inner critic and now I am kinder to myself. I focus on what's helpful/unhelpful rather than must/shoulds. I feel like growing as a person is one way to make sure that this chronic illness struggle isn't in vain.

This diagnosis sounds like a lot to process and would be scary to anyone. It sounds like you have done a great job getting the information you need and have a good medical team in place to start treating you correctly. I hope getting the appropriate treatment will help you feel better than the untreated past year and by being so proactive I'm sure you'll be able to mitigate any negative side effects. Best wishes for the year ahead!