Trish, I can relate to this post! Sometimes it feels like someone is just standing over with a bucket of obstacles to rain down. I am so impressed and inspired you got on the treadmill though... I must get back to it. I haven't exercised for over a week and like you I have some fine excuses, but you have helped to make them flimsy. Thanks.
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This has also been my experience in year 9/10 classrooms. They are more consumers of media than creators and it takes some effort to keep students on task with some exceptions.

I think you are amazing. Be gentle with yourself please because even though I haven't met you, you are a part of my world and I want you to get through this ordeal you are experiencing. Really. Take care of yourself. Promise:). You don't have to 'suck it up' I think that is a phrase that should be reserved for princesses who spill drink on their frock or people with relatively minor concerns... you on the other hand I see as a soldier, bravely forging through a life/death struggle.
As carers though we need to care for ourselves first. So please... don't suck it up... nurture yourself and ask for what you want and give yourself what you need:)
Just my 10c worth.

I love this post. I often talk to strangers. They are awesome... as you were today... for the stranger that found a friend in you. I've had strangers say the most amazing and helpful things to me:). Sorry I haven't been commenting much either... but I have been reading your journey and witnessing your bravery. :).