Do they make a concrete weighted blanket so that Ben doesn't beat the junk out of me at night?
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Aw Happy Birthday!!! Such a cutie. I just want to give him a squeeze!

There is def a lot of fuckery going on at that school. Why the fuck would they change him, then after the pants dry change them back?!?!?! Why not put them in a bag and send them home, like anyone with half a brain would know to do? Yeah, I would have yelled.
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Yeah, K often loses her ability to communicate when something happens...it is definitely a guessing game trying to guess what is going on. The puzzle piece doesn't offend me. Sometimes it is right on target., for our KIDS anyway.

Totally get all of this. K is afraid of us ever opening a window in the car, and she screams and has a total panic attack. She still tries to take me down if I come close to her head with a brush. She can't deal with school a lot b/c there are just too many kids/noise. It's def different than the lesser sensory issues everyone experiences...
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Daddy bloggers are few and far between, especially daddy autism bloggers. That is why your husband became so popular. Seriously, they pop on the scene, and day one they have a following that bloggers like us can't even get after years. We are a dime a dozen, unfortunately. You are also REAL, and I find the mommy bloggers who sky rocket are those who make their blogs more poetic and touchy feel-y, imo. Who write for fame, and not for connections. I'm so not like that, myself, so I will never get the big #'s some do. I am OK with it, though. My blog is mostly for me to vent and share, and the few people I get are ones I get to know REALLY well. Who needs thousands of people you don't know, right?

What Jill said. I hate that some of you had to go through such traumatic childhoods, but please know *I*, and the other parents here are NOT like that. Yes, there are times that I hate what K has to go through b/c she has autism. I do everything I can for her. We hemorrhage money every month helping her. I have my 5yo son in therapy already so he can always have a safe place to deal with any feelings he might have due to having a sister who takes out her aggression on mostly him. I have hired advocates and fought with the school. I do everything in my power to make life good for my daughter. I just want her to find peace, to find happiness. If she was a happy kid with autism, I would be happy. I don't care that she has autism, I care how it effects her. Seriously, I am sure life would be much easier if I didn't make her go to school, didn't have expectations, moved out so she didn't have to be around her brother, and let her do whatever she wants, and I do struggle knowing what is best. I have been told society causes her to behave as she does...but what does that mean I should do? Remove her from society? And I am asking seriously, not as a smartass, b/c I don't know, and there isn't going to be enough awareness or change for things to get better in her life right now. I mean, I am trying to do the best I can...I hope that one day she doesn't grow up and hate me...that would kill me. You can't imagine the love I feel for that kid.

Hey now, let's not compare autistic folk to asshole NT's. There is a difference between ASSHOLE and Theory of Mind...LOL ;)<3

Wow, I just figured out you can add smileys.

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I create images in my head, too, of how K's life would be w/out Autism. Images of her having a best friend...giggling alongside other girls...being on stage in a dance recital...lots of things. I can't help it. I think grief is a really accurate word. Maybe people will fault us for it, but you definitely grieve the loss of a normal childhood for your kid. Yes, it is much different than death, but people grieve for a lot of things, and I don't think anyone should be telling you it's not a valid feeling to have. It is. I have had it. I stand by it. I think sometimes we let the opinions, and yes they are opinions, of others influence us too much. We feel what we feel, and that's OK.

Why do you have a pull up bar on your fridge? Also, can you bottle that handwriting and send it my way?!
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