i dont want to talk to him. my mom is getting sick and having stomach problems i dont understand why she doesn't just leave.
I guess so. he came back home today he and my mother aren't talking. But he seemed like there is nothing wrong. Like nothing happened and nothing's been happening.
I think he does. I finally told my mom how i felt. I just hope she is thinking about it. He has been gone the last two days. What i don't understand, he works for the fire department and in public he looks like he couldn't hurt a fly. So then why is he like this at home?
I'm scared to. At times he is cool, but then he gets like that.
I wish that were the case it's been like this for years. I feel like when i am in public with him i'm lying to people. Like we are this happy family when really it's hell. i find it so easy to pretend like i'm just fine. . could this be the reason that i feel so depressed when i'm alone. I wish i could understand my feelings.
It's not that my friends wouldn't like the real me it's just that if i show them the real me i will be looked at different. I am the athletic out going open person. Im good at the sports but i hate it. Im good at pertending to be happy but im not. Its hell in my house hold if you read my other blogs. And imnot sure anyone will understand.
Well if they are your real friends they won't care. It can be tough but i have many friends who if they were gay or lesbian i would not care. My aunt is lesbian and i still see her as a human being. If you must tell someone tell a person u really trust. Im not sure where you are from but in the united states you are free to be anything you want.
Thanks, i really need a away to explain my self to my parents. They think i am this outgoing funny jumpy happy person. I'm not. And i need them to realize this. Any ideas
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