gdp's Comments

Niko Says : Grinding My Teeth in Nowhere, California

Wed, 19 May 2010 23:29:00 +0000

A friend sent me an emailed response: "Hey there. Oh man, that was something to read. Written well, but I feel really bad. One thing you need to know though. You were always the guy who simply does it. You know, like that teacher or what it was, said. Totally one of your outstanding qualities, and I guess S**** has it too. From when I look back and how we started and when all the energy was there, I can only think of one thing that changed and that, I believe, is not helping you much. I remember that even V***** said it about you. You were always the most humble guy. And not in the sense of being a soft person, actually it has always been the opposite. Also not humble in the sense of submissive, again opposite. That humbleness in the course of the years somehow left you. I actually don't believe that it's not there anymore. People don't change in such manners. I could only imagine that it is covered up. It used to be one of your major strengths or sources of power. You know, a very subtle thing that would show in your general attitude towards life. It was that thing that made you deal with customers in such an amazing way, like on 23rd. And I'm not talking about the bad customers. Just everybody. I'm also not talking about being overly giving (like paying T**** 100 bucks a day for nothing). That was always just stupid and due to your not always that good feeling for what money is (it's energy stored in papers or numbers in my opinion, and sometimes you tend to waste energy, because you have too much yourself and don't want to deal with it). Anyway, if I could make myself understandable, it might be worth a try digging that humbleness back out. I'm not sure where it came from or what motivated it, so I really don't know, why it got burried. Might also be, that with R***, it's real easy to just have it back. I don't think it has anything to do with having made bad experiences. To me it seems you just forgot, and actually it's right there."

Niko Says : Ocean Beach: Character Studies

Wed, 3 Feb 2010 18:07:35 +0000

That's terrible about Ray! D. from C-Squat has been telling me about it. The people in Ocean Beach are dead broke. This ain't L.A. baby. I visited Mission Beach last night, which is one beach town north of here, and they see to have a more thriving economy, and they got Banana Bungalo! Yeah, baby!! I'll be back in two weeks.

Niko Says : The accumulation of detritus as an energy source

Wed, 3 Feb 2010 00:28:53 +0000

My pleasure. Thank you for taking the time to leave a comment!

Niko Says : I'm sorry old man

Thu, 10 Dec 2009 17:27:18 +0000

Let's go to Paris. When can you go?

Niko Says : So I'm a failure in life

Wed, 9 Dec 2009 16:29:39 +0000

It hurts me a lot to even write this down because I know that I'm leaving out a ton of details and I feel the sense of loss, but it's better than waiting even longer and losing the rest of whats left of my memory. I'm also trying to balance the telling of old tales with descriptions of my current adventures because I think that a lot of the value and interest lies in the "pop" aspect of it. I really can't stand a bunch of whiners and wankers drinking beer and telling war stories about how things used to be.

Niko Says : It was the first time I ever had GHB

Wed, 9 Dec 2009 15:05:00 +0000

Are you fucking with me? For a minute there I thought this was an article from The Onion

Niko Says : I'm sorry old man

Wed, 9 Dec 2009 14:56:17 +0000

I understand now. When?

Niko Says : So I'm a failure in life

Wed, 9 Dec 2009 14:54:50 +0000

Thanks Barthes, I appreciate that.

Niko Says : I'm sorry old man

Tue, 8 Dec 2009 20:54:32 +0000

Paris? Tell me more!

Niko Says : I'm sorry old man

Mon, 7 Dec 2009 16:29:34 +0000

Ah, curious and curiouser

Niko Says : On the Chinese bus from Boston to New York

Mon, 7 Dec 2009 15:19:46 +0000

That's okay, no need to make excuses! My esteem just went into the corner and strangled itself (but luckily not before putting on nylon stockings and a garter belt.)

Niko Says : Cold and wet in the city I love to hate

Sun, 29 Nov 2009 23:54:20 +0000

Bravo. Goddamn.

Niko Says : Cold and wet in the city I love to hate

Sun, 29 Nov 2009 07:02:27 +0000

I've read Kerouac, but I can't say that I'm a big fan. Henry Miller I like. I'm reading both Tropics now. I didn't realize that Norman Mailer might be as interesting to me as you suggested. Shockers? I'm curious. Hard to find online though. I don't want to read books on paper anymore. I need ebooks or PDFs if I'm going to read at all.

Niko Says : Cold and wet in the city I love to hate

Sat, 28 Nov 2009 16:33:09 +0000

Us!? In my firmament the night sky is mine without another star in sight. Before you project yourself into my space, take care that your sphere is know to mine. For I am a jealous god and if you spin with my celestial orb then perhaps you deserve pity as well as respect.