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Do you have a friend you might feel comfortable asking for moral support? Maybe someone you can set goals with ("I will make an appointment today! Ask me at 4 if I have called yet.") or who will sit with you while you make phone calls, go to appointments, etc?
It is exhausting to get started with all this when you already aren't feeling well. I'm sorry.
But anyway, yes, anger can be a depression symptom. A therapist once told me that depression is anger turned inward. I am not sure about the clinical validity of that statement, but it feels like it has some truth. It makes sense that some of that anger can leak out too.
I was also brought up fundamentalist Christian, even went to a fundie college, so I have many friends and family who still are fundamentalist. I have found that theological debates are not helpful. Ultimately, no matter how good your exegesis is, it's just too scary for some people to entertain the thought of stepping away from what they have been taught is absolute truth and a matter of eternal life or death.
You can trot out great scriptures like Ezekiel 16:48-50 where God says that the sin of Sodom was that "She and her daughters were arrogant, overfed and unconcerned; they did not help the poor and needy. They were haughty and did detestable things before me." Not homosexuality-- lack of care for the poor and needy. But people will come back with their own "bully verses" or other arguments. It's often fruitless and frustrating. That said, it is helpful to read for one's own education.
Also, I think it's important to keep reminding my friends and family that all people deserve love and deserve to be valued. I talk a lot about how Jesus displayed radical love and hospitality to people whom the religious leaders of the day considered to be the worst sinners, so I see a modern parallel in offering that radical love and acceptance to the LGBTQ+ community. When they tell me that I am wrong and will be accountable to God for leading others astray, I say that if one day I am before the throne of God, it turns out I'm wrong, and I have to account for my beliefs and actions, I am 100% confident in the answer I will have-- that over and over I see examples of radical love in the scripture, and that I would much rather be held accountable for erring on the side of love. That has actually stopped quite a few people in their tracks more than any exegesis ever has.
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