"I like pretending to be someone joyful and free, someone who trusts almost too easily. Maybe I like fooling them; definitely I like fooling myself. When they’re in my apartment, though, I want them to leave. But, I guess, I also want something else. I want them to not hurt me. I want them, one after the other, to not hurt me and not hurt me and not hurt me and finally to prove, by collectively not hurting me – by some kind of miracle of aggregated nonviolent ordinariness – the following: That no one has ever hurt me or could ever hurt me, because that’s just Not A Thing That Happens."
too real in the best most heartbreaking way. [[rape survivor]]
I am now looking up how to report a 3-year-old rape at my University (publicly under Title IX investigation!). I didn't report then because I just wanted to graduate and move away and he was graduating too so what was the point?
The point, as I keep trying to believe, is that it happened and it was real and I want to be a number on a page now. A number that means yes, it happened, it happened here.
1. Severus Snape/Lucius Malfoy school-era fic, 10th grade. I got one chapter in that was largely descriptions of Alan Rickman's imagined schoolboy sneer and flowing robes and then got embarrassed and threw the notebook away.
2. Ginny/Hermione semi-smut and agonizing coming out feelings. Just after coming out myself.
3. Alex Cabot/Olivia Benson (of Law and Order: SVU) smut drabbles - began at least 3, one of them kinky. These are still saved as drafts on my Tumblr. They're still my OTP but er, I can't write worth a damn so...I leave it up to the pros.
In 14 words you have perfectly summarized everything terrible about The Marriage Plot ; thank you for your service
BLESS. Well read ladies who like English fiction are supposed to like Hardy and I will never ever be over my hatred of Tess. EVER.
I have so much law and order SVU femslash to rec for you, let me tell ya. (please, someone, give me an excuse)
In aggregate, I have spent approximately a year of my life reading and re-reading Cabenson fanfiction and watching the show. Thank god for Ralst and later iterations, although it did make it rather difficult to finish my senior thesis in college.
I think I've read pretty much every fic that people would rate 4 or 5 stars; I welcome challenges to this or requests. As I'm not talented enough to write it myself, dissemination of Cabenson goodness will just have to be my fandom contribution.
This is my ideal Magic environment, for real. I will never be interested in 1. devoting the necessary resources to be great 2. spend another gotdamn minute in a game shop than i have to (creepy middle school experiences = scarring) 3. playing entirely sober. But I wish it was a thing you could casually do at a pub, you know, sit around with your deck out and someone would be like "let's have a go!" and then you'd consider it a win if you didn't spill beer on your cards.
Booster drafts seem to be the easiest way to have a casual game, but that requires entering aforementioned extremely creepy game shops.