Myotic Tesseract

Myotic Tesseract

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1 day ago @ Only Hooves - Pony of the Day #10 · 0 replies · +1 points

Ohhh fuck Polar I was so worried about you thank God you're still around ;u;
I shouldn't have worried so much I'm sorry haha, it was only a few weeks

It's not creepy to still be thinking about someone you were such close friends with a long time ago, I feel the same about people I even still have contact with heh
You're not a stalker unless you've actually been following them really closely without them knowing; you haven't even gotten the chance to find out where she is
Literally that feeling of feeling like a creep, I feel that all the time whenever talking to a bunch of my friends, especially older ones who I don't talk to as much. I get it, Ky

Also damn you have snow already? O.o

2 weeks ago @ Only Hooves - Pony of the Day #10 · 0 replies · +1 points

come back please

5 weeks ago @ Only Hooves - Pony of the Day #10 · 0 replies · +2 points

I wish we could talk more. I want you to vent more to me, I want to be a better friend for you. I hate getting distant from people and then seeing that they're falling apart more and more. Ky, as your friend, please stay strong for us. For me. Okay?

I can't really give some big emotional spiel (at least not like I used to) and I'm not gonna try and make some sort of movie out of all this anyways. Just know I'm always here for you and so are others. We may be physically distant but I still care so much about you. You're one of the best people I've ever met. Stay strong and stay safe. I love you. <3

20 weeks ago @ Only Hooves - Pony of the Day #10 · 0 replies · +1 points

Polar we should do world domination together

32 weeks ago @ Only Hooves - Pony of the Day #10 · 0 replies · +1 points

There's been a lot of shit that has happened and I... I really feel bad that so many people gave up on you and stuff. Shit, I actually really feel bad... now I'm feeling like I should've been there for you, for the situations, like I would've been a much better friend if I came back to FD earlier and actually stayed there.

Sorry, maybe it's just late night thoughts, but... I feel guilty. I can't shake the nagging feeling that I at least factored into the downward spiral that fucked over a lot of friendships and stuff. I think a lot of this started when I got irrationally upset at Grazin for no reason and got banned off of FD.

God, I was such a fucking idiot in 2016...

None of you deserved the turmoil that started from FD and SD. So much is just fucking broken now and I wish I could change it but no fucking everything had to fall apart apparently and we had to go from being all mostly friends to 'who the fuck is even my true friend anymore'

idk... just thinking about this shit makes me worn out and frustrated, I wasn't even there yet I'm feeling the ripples

sorry this is a jumbled mess of a comment.

You are my friend, Polar. You are so important to me and to others. You've always been one of the nicest people ever. It breaks my heart that you got thrown into the fire and shit... you didn't deserve anything

I promise in the future I'll do anything I can for you, I need to be a better friend lest I keep losing the people I knew to turbulence and drama reshaping them and breaking them down

I love you

33 weeks ago @ Only Hooves - Welcome Again! The OH ... · 0 replies · +1 points

oop nvm there it is

33 weeks ago @ Only Hooves - Pony of the Day #10 · 0 replies · +1 points

I never got a close look at your pic before, I always thought it was a planet but no, it's Luna and Derpy on the moon lol

33 weeks ago @ Only Hooves - Welcome Again! The OH ... · 1 reply · +1 points

How come this isn't showing in the Popular Posts widget? Maybe too dead?

33 weeks ago @ Only Hooves - Pony of the Day #10 · 0 replies · +1 points

I hope virtual hugs help at all. *hugs*

I'm not sure how I'm going to feel coming out of high school... it'll be scary because of how unused I still am to the world, plus there are probably some people here I could rely on that I won't be able to anymore.

I'm actually glad you shared that about how you feel about people. It gives me some clarity too, as your friend. Romantic feelings are so complicated and everyone has their own take on them, and conflicting ones can often be just fucking bleh, yeah.

I don't know what to say about you missing your friends, I've got jack shit on advice on that. I didn't make close enough friends at my old school. I can understand how it hurts to have people you had mutual care for to just either fade away or be ripped from you, though. I try to hold on to as many meaningful friendships as I can. Res, if you remember her, is probably the biggest example of that. I try to talk to her as much as I think I should without being annoying but while trying to keep some flame burning. I know nothing lasts forever but I know that trying to keep stuff for as long as possible is something we just can't help.

Yikes, let me stop before I go off on too much of a tangent, heh. Just know I and others are at least here for ya, Ky. You're such a beautiful person especially in your heart. I wish I could be there to comfort you or to let you vent your feelings in person. Tbh I know true friendship transcends physical boundaries but I can't help but just crave to be somewhere near you and others. It'd probably help a lot. Yeah, I've thought about that ever since I became a part of EqD's community.

Hope you'll hold up alright. I'm counting on it, okay? Love ya. Stay safe. Burgers. <3

33 weeks ago @ Only Hooves - Pony of the Day #10 · 0 replies · +1 points

Jesus... Idk what to say. I didn't know she could be so hostile toward you of all people. Even after all the shit that went on back then, you definitely seemed to come off as one of the nicer people at least to me.

I can't speak on much anything that happened in FD, but I will say you really shouldn't have to be dealing with all this. I might try talking to Grazin again sometime, maybe about this stuff, though I feel pretty hurt by her about this. I still care about her but jeez...

There's been so much turmoil and even I, having not been as involved, am feeling a lot of the ripples from it. Hopefully we can just settle this somehow, I'm so tired of it.