There's been a lot of shit that has happened and I... I really feel bad that so many people gave up on you and stuff. Shit, I actually really feel bad... now I'm feeling like I should've been there for you, for the situations, like I would've been a much better friend if I came back to FD earlier and actually stayed there.

Sorry, maybe it's just late night thoughts, but... I feel guilty. I can't shake the nagging feeling that I at least factored into the downward spiral that fucked over a lot of friendships and stuff. I think a lot of this started when I got irrationally upset at Grazin for no reason and got banned off of FD.

God, I was such a fucking idiot in 2016...

None of you deserved the turmoil that started from FD and SD. So much is just fucking broken now and I wish I could change it but no fucking everything had to fall apart apparently and we had to go from being all mostly friends to 'who the fuck is even my true friend anymore'

idk... just thinking about this shit makes me worn out and frustrated, I wasn't even there yet I'm feeling the ripples

sorry this is a jumbled mess of a comment.

You are my friend, Polar. You are so important to me and to others. You've always been one of the nicest people ever. It breaks my heart that you got thrown into the fire and shit... you didn't deserve anything

I promise in the future I'll do anything I can for you, I need to be a better friend lest I keep losing the people I knew to turbulence and drama reshaping them and breaking them down

I love you

oop nvm there it is

I never got a close look at your pic before, I always thought it was a planet but no, it's Luna and Derpy on the moon lol

How come this isn't showing in the Popular Posts widget? Maybe too dead?

I hope virtual hugs help at all. *hugs*

I'm not sure how I'm going to feel coming out of high school... it'll be scary because of how unused I still am to the world, plus there are probably some people here I could rely on that I won't be able to anymore.

I'm actually glad you shared that about how you feel about people. It gives me some clarity too, as your friend. Romantic feelings are so complicated and everyone has their own take on them, and conflicting ones can often be just fucking bleh, yeah.

I don't know what to say about you missing your friends, I've got jack shit on advice on that. I didn't make close enough friends at my old school. I can understand how it hurts to have people you had mutual care for to just either fade away or be ripped from you, though. I try to hold on to as many meaningful friendships as I can. Res, if you remember her, is probably the biggest example of that. I try to talk to her as much as I think I should without being annoying but while trying to keep some flame burning. I know nothing lasts forever but I know that trying to keep stuff for as long as possible is something we just can't help.

Yikes, let me stop before I go off on too much of a tangent, heh. Just know I and others are at least here for ya, Ky. You're such a beautiful person especially in your heart. I wish I could be there to comfort you or to let you vent your feelings in person. Tbh I know true friendship transcends physical boundaries but I can't help but just crave to be somewhere near you and others. It'd probably help a lot. Yeah, I've thought about that ever since I became a part of EqD's community.

Hope you'll hold up alright. I'm counting on it, okay? Love ya. Stay safe. Burgers. <3

Jesus... Idk what to say. I didn't know she could be so hostile toward you of all people. Even after all the shit that went on back then, you definitely seemed to come off as one of the nicer people at least to me.

I can't speak on much anything that happened in FD, but I will say you really shouldn't have to be dealing with all this. I might try talking to Grazin again sometime, maybe about this stuff, though I feel pretty hurt by her about this. I still care about her but jeez...

There's been so much turmoil and even I, having not been as involved, am feeling a lot of the ripples from it. Hopefully we can just settle this somehow, I'm so tired of it.

blep blep

A week ago... I don't want to bother you about it ofc, and I can generally guess what the deal is, but you can tell me what's going on exactly if you want. Just hope you're alright.

Still counts :P

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