gdp's Comments

Crasstalk : Friday Open Thread

Sat, 19 May 2012 00:21:23 +0000

Piracy is not theft. They are not synonymous. Is there not an aspect of bad faith to this? A person may never buy or intend to buy a certain movie or song, but enjoy it for free through piracy. Is enjoyment something that demands payment? I think the problem is getting convoluted. I think artists could be better compensated and appreciated, but I would also rather not deem something a crime when the loss cannot accurately be estimated.

Crasstalk : Thursday Open Thread

Fri, 18 May 2012 03:48:44 +0000

Dude, you're the one potentially naming your son a name that is even more marked than Bastian. It's a syllable longer. SAbastian. Oh yes, but surely it is the more practical and sensible of the two. Despite the fact that one lives inside of the other, they are completely different. ...Bastian is one of my potential names for a son. It is an excellent name. No one would make fun of him . . .

Crasstalk : Thursday Open Thread

Fri, 18 May 2012 01:19:26 +0000

...tion?

Crasstalk : Hump Day Open Thread

Thu, 17 May 2012 04:31:18 +0000

You are right on the money. Just wasn't sure how to express it eloquently. You and Princess Lala (on the money money money) and Rumpofsteelskin (someone likes my art! what!). Okay, you guys have to stop now. I can't be this gleeful. It will offend the gods.

Crasstalk : Hump Day Open Thread

Thu, 17 May 2012 04:19:12 +0000

I am reminded of that scene in Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade, where he makes that leap of faith onto a path that he cannot see. Accepting yourself regardless of what you believe others might think, or do think, feels like that jump.

Crasstalk : Hump Day Open Thread

Thu, 17 May 2012 04:10:16 +0000

I was thinking that we were similar, eerily. If only people saw us the way we express ourselves in words, in the real world. Then we would be as queens through a sea of swine. Just kidding about the swine.

Crasstalk : Hump Day Open Thread

Thu, 17 May 2012 04:04:38 +0000

Very true. Thanks for being the stable off which I bounce my crazy.

Crasstalk : Hump Day Open Thread

Thu, 17 May 2012 04:03:02 +0000

Letting go? Being still? But -- TIME! It is. Oh my god. That's another second gone. :)

Crasstalk : Hump Day Open Thread

Thu, 17 May 2012 03:44:33 +0000

Keep us posted, yeah?

Crasstalk : Hump Day Open Thread

Thu, 17 May 2012 03:38:12 +0000

Okay, no one cares, but whatever. Remember that guy who rejected me? Let's call him Dick. As soon as I stopped giving a fuck, it's like he desperately wants the attention back. During my lunch, which was ten minutes after his shift ended (I kind of made sure because I didn't want to encounter him) he walks all the way around the building back to the lunch room, and just fucking sits there watching me for thirty minutes. I am not joking. He then leaves, AND THEN COMES BACK, as if giving me one more chance to speak to him. Nuh uh. Been there done that, you were a jerk. It's like he's shy, but that's what I assumed before, and I was wrong. What the hell? Honestly, we're a match made in heaven, because lord knows I am just as weird, but I have my dignity. I got to talking to this girl from work, and it made me realize how weird and quiet I am, how sad, and how little faith I have in my own abilities or worth. We've been working there the same about of time but she knows everyone, they text her and stuff, and I know no one. I am so anti social, it practically oozes from my pores like a noxious fume. Talking to people makes me feel wonderful about myself, like I could walk on clouds. A cab driver this week told me I was beautiful, the day after Dick didn't immediately open his arms to me like I wanted. I suppose it was rash and I jumped the gun, just straight asking someone if they were flirting with me. That's probably not a thing that is done. But talk? To boys? Impossible! So we're all working tomorrow. The girl, Dick, me, and my other crush, who she said she was going to make me actually talk to. Ha. She is completely confident in my ability to charm him. It's infectious. I doubt, but we'll see. It's so weird. She actually has ambitions, she believes in living life to the fullest. I asked her what the point of anything was, since all is leveled to ash and dust by the limitless expanse that is time (that's not melodramatic). This didn't seem to get her down in the slightest. She is two years younger than me. Argh. What I really hate the most is seeing my own true reflection. In my head, by myself, I have a grander image, my thoughts go unchallenged. I wallow. When I actually speak these things aloud, they immediately are deconstructed and turned on their head by other people. I used to pride myself on my intellect, as a teenager, but I do not even have that illusory identity anymore. But I think it's a good start, wondering where I am, so maybe I can figure out where I need to be and how to get there.

Crasstalk : Hump Day Open Thread

Thu, 17 May 2012 03:37:53 +0000

You guys don't *really* mind standing in for my therapist, do you? Because I'm dropping a deuce in the reply. You don't have to read it, I just want to have it out there in the world. So sorry, I always do this, it's really narcissistic, and absurd, to swoop in and be like here's my life, without any ceremony, but still. Good things! Also it's late, and there are probably only a few stragglers left around by now. Before you know it we'll have a new open thread, and won't that be dandy?

Crasstalk : Tuesday Open Thread

Wed, 16 May 2012 03:05:22 +0000

I like her. It's irrational. She's mesmerizing.

Crasstalk : Tuesday Open Thread

Wed, 16 May 2012 02:03:40 +0000

I used Crest White Strips this morning and my teeth have been aching all day. I keep repeating to myself that pain is a phantom of the mind. It's not working. Advil is completely powerless against this silent menace. I also avoid the dentist. And the doctor. If I were shitting blood and found a lump in my breast I would agonize for days over whether to talk to someone about it. My usual way of dealing with things is to avoid them and hope they go away. It actually works a surprising amount of the time. I blame my Father and his 'just tilt your head back' approach to nose bleeds, which he somehow manages to apply to every health issue.

Crasstalk : Tuesday Open Thread

Wed, 16 May 2012 01:50:51 +0000

People don't display their body. It exists and is viewable quite without choice in the matter. How likely is it that there are no circumstances in which pants may encroach on crotch territory? Since people are so fucking uppity about any allusion to genitals, like ZOMG she has a BODY under there, like how AUDACIOUS, I am pretty sure there is a market for this.

Crasstalk : Friday Open Thread

Sat, 12 May 2012 02:53:15 +0000

You were a visitor, you saw it. YOU JUST FORGOT!!!!! You seem like you really see the people in your life, especially the women. Why do you have such a sympathetic gaze? Are you a disappointed romantic?

Crasstalk : Friday Open Thread

Sat, 12 May 2012 02:34:55 +0000

Some people have absolutely no shame. You saw my okcupid profile. Did you think I was pretty? Because I don't know if you know this but SOMEONE REJECTED ME. As I was saying, some people, completely klassless. Like, they just have no social compass at all. They put all the burden of their behavior on other people. I mean, how exactly are you supposed to react in that kind of a situation? What could she possibly expect from that?

Crasstalk : Friday Open Thread

Sat, 12 May 2012 01:59:25 +0000

I used to have two followers and now I only have one. Does anyone even care enough to be like, "Hmm, I regret this decision, let me go about changing it to better reflect my updated opinion, as the people I follow on internet communities indicates the kind of person I would like to be, and therefore it is imperative I unfollow this person STAT so as not to blemish my regard in the eyes of others!"?

Crasstalk : Friday Open Thread

Sat, 12 May 2012 01:42:35 +0000

Asked that weird guy from work if we were flirting, because of all the eye contact and awkward; said, "I don't believe we've been properly introduced." No response to that. He eventually said something along the lines of he doesn't flirt, or not at work, but being kind of struck by the dawning realization of my mistake, I wasn't paying much attention to his reasoning. I'm like, "Oh, okay." and walked away. Honestly, I kind of thought I was doing him a favour. That maybe he was shy. That I owed it to him to see if there was anything there. I mean, really? I'm basically screaming for him to just say, do, anything, throwing myself at his feet practically, and he's not even tempted? Why? Every fucking time (true statement). You can't help me, I understand. But someone needs to hear this unbelievable shit.

Crasstalk : Midweek Open Thread

Thu, 10 May 2012 02:31:32 +0000

Reminds me of my first few days (just kidding, it took months) working where I am now. After a while with people you will remember what self esteem is like. You will eventually get the feeling that you belong, that you are equals with others, that they are not assuming the worst of you. You won't need anyone to tell you what you have to offer, and your expectations of yourself and confidence in your abilities (which you will be astounded to discover are actually quite great) will begin to grow. You will believe that you can make something of yourself and that your life is not a waste. You will conceive of the future and it won't seem like a distant, impossible fantasy.

Crasstalk : Tuesday Open Thread

Wed, 9 May 2012 02:18:01 +0000

This must be why I take him seriously. You guys seem pretty fucking crotchety. It borders on superior. But you know him better than I.