Wow, it sounds like you went through quite the ordeal. I can't say that I've gone through the exact same type of situation, but I completely see where your coming from when you mentioned how heart wrenching it feels to be played or deceived in anyway by someone who you put your complete trust in. I can't imagine what it took to bounce back from such a nightmare. I think even though it still bothers you a little, just the fact that you've been able to get to this point all while looking out and lending a helping hand to others is fairly incredible. Also I mean, we learn from our mistakes, and I think it's obvious that you've learned something that we should all keep in mind, that trust should be seen as our greatest gift, and yet our greatest weakness. Of course it's impossible to see into the future, but it is possible that going through that horrible situation may have in fact given you the life lessons to avoid an even worse situation in the future. Maybe...hopefully.
I mean, I think priorities regarding sex are going to greatlyyyyy vary depending on personality, but for me, it's mostly about the right person. Most of my friends are pretty much alright with having sex with just about any girl in any situation, but I've found when I'm in like an very intimate situation with a girl who I know deep down inside I really don't like all that much, I for the most part just can't bring myself to going all the way with her. My friends would kill me if I told them that, but it's really the truth. I found that if I am having sex with a girl that I know I don't like for whatever reason, that I just don't feel anythingggg. It just kind of feels pointless.
Ahh, that truly does sound like a pretty tough situation. I think bottom line though, there is so little that YOU, yourself can do. Since it really doesn't sound like there is anything you can directly do to help out the situation, I think the best idea would be to just try living your life as normal as possible. It sounds like your mom cares about you a lot and I'm sure that's also what she would prefer you to do. When your a parent, the main thing they want is for you to be happy and comfortable (in most situations) So I think if you could just keep a smile on your face, it may very well help her out greatly, and give her the extra confidence to just get through the hard times quicker. I understand that I don't know too many details about your family, but that still just seems like that would be your best bet. Hope that helps!
I never really got into IMVU, every time I went on thinking like, oh hey this might be cool, I just immediately run into some stupid little kid and just get turned off again. It's definitely not something to get pissed off over if someone gives you crap on there. (he's probably just a loser who needs to get others to feel bad in order to make himself feel good) Ahh, motocross sounds sick though, you should definitely try to get into. Regarding your mom, I obviously don't know what she's like but hopefully if you can just show her how committed you would actually be, then maybe she would be alright with investing in it. Bike wise though, I did have a friend who was into motocross and I know he would like lease a bike from his local track (so wouldn't be like you actually fully own it, but at least it will be much cheaper then buying one) And maybe if you were to try to do something like that, and show your mom it's not just a passing phase your into, then maybe she will then be alright with investing in your own bike. Just my 2 cents, hope that helps.
Ahaha, straightforward - I like it! I can definitely relate to some of those crazy awkward moments. At the same time though, don't just go out and "whore" yourself around in an effort to not be the 5th wheel. I say this not because I don't condone girls "getting around" (I mean I'm a guy, so to us thats kinda hot) BUT, I can tell you with confidence how it will turn out. Being a guy, I can say you may get with a lot of guys by changing up your act, but I can pretty much guarantee that you won't get anything close a boyfriend. Guys don't like to go out with sluts. (not saying that you are or will be like that, but just in case you were thinking sluts get all the guys - they don't) So I think you should cut loose and step out of your comfort zone over the next year, just remember to not let yourself transform into someone you not just because you think it will attract more people.
Hope that helps.
I-LOVE-WHALE-WARS! It's such a great show! If you've only seen one episode, I highly recommend watching the rest of the season. The people I am most amazed by on the show are the one's that do such a crappy job aboard the ship. Not like the people who are more up on deck and doing cool stuff, and throwing the stuff at the Japanese ships, but like the people down below deck, such as the cooks and the various people who clean the ship and stuff. They get paid nothing, sit on a constantly rocking ship, and do nothing to directly effect the whalers (like throwing stuff, driving the small boat) yet they are so invested in the cause that it makes no difference to them. I think through the teenage years, the opportunities to make a serious difference is small, however I think volunteering at a local animal shelter would be an awesome idea! Back about two years ago, I volunteered at an animal shelter in my neighborhood and had all great experiences. I pretty much just played with little puppies, walked them, fed them, and kept them entertained for a few hours a week. I would definitely recommend doing this, the feeling after knowing I made the littlest of difference was un-comparable.
Your post is very insightful. The best part is how it's so obvious that this is all being contrived from past experiences, that you know how it feels to be down, but more importantly, you know how to pick yourself up, something that not very many people can easily do. Haha, and regarding Hope, I used to alwayssss listen to that song, but after reading your post, I'll definitely download it again!
Wow, the hints you make of peer pressure through alcohol is great. It's a very real and common problem but you express your feelings over it in a great but subtle way. I think you've definitely learned that it's not easy fitting in with those around you without being sucked into bad habits. It sounds like your very aware of everything happening around you though, an ability not everyone has, so I think you will be alright.
Wow, congrats to your mom, if only everyone else could be that strong. Your very lucky to have such a brave person in your life. What attracts you so much to Maryland though? I've been to Ocean city and loved that, but beyond Ocean city I know very little of Maryland.
It's funny that you would mention this. I'm applying to ASU and was on a campus tour a few weeks ago and all they would talk about is their mission to go "green." I mean the solar panel idea did seem a bit spotty but apparently they do have a pretty strong overall plan to become carbon neutral by 2020. I myself for the most part don't get sucked into all the various "green" ideas, so I don't have much to comment on regarding the rest of the post, but I do also definitely see the possible pointlessness of such a small yet expensive step that they are taking in the effort to go green.
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