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Relatedly, how do I tell my job that I've somehow regressed to being less skilled/useful than when I was hired? I appear to have slid under the radar thus far due to the magic of working remotely and a previously stellar reputation, but I'll be back in the office soon. Many of my hard skills and almost all of my soft skills have floated away in the wind. Being there in person might help, but it also might not! I cannot think of a good way to say "please manage me very intensively and possibly let me go through training again or else I will wreck absolutely everything I touch."
The world is a mess and one falling-apart woman's decision to stay in the city she recklessly moved to or go home is not all that important in the scheme of things but it is my whole world right now. I have talked and talked and talked and thought and thought and thought and written and written and written and I have no answers (or too many answers). I am disgusted with myself and bored with my disgust and too busy wishing for impossible things to make my actual life better.
I'm a sunshine human! Bring back my sunshine!
MIA, Santigold, Janelle Monae, and Lindsey Sterling all help me to get my butt in gear! If you like very loud music, Nico Vega is also a good bet.
A good song to start with is Bullpen by Dessa, especially if you're in a field with a gender imbalance.
I miss the campfire chats from DA:O, though. I really dislike having to go to each character's house to talk to them, and having to wait for specific companion quests to be able to have in depth conversations with them. I JUST WANT TO USE MY CHARMS TO MAKE AVELINE FORGIVE ME FOR ALL THE LAWBREAKING, JEEZ. (I just picked up Fenris, so at least I can switch out my warriors when I'm about to do something nefarious.)
Next time I go I'll pull him aside and tell him that I was struggling to walk for days after that workout, and maybe to let me tone it down next time. And I'll work on saying no when my body starts to give out instead of regretting my entire life afterwards.