I completely and totally understand what you mean when you say, "In truth, being nice sometimes makes me uncomfortable…"

I was extremely bullied in middle school and high school and it led me to kind of be afraid of people. That fear leads to me being mean, because I have to protect myself right? Because people are horrible for no reason right? Right, and wrong.

A few days ago I realized I was turning into the same kind of person as those kids who followed me home from school everyday, who spit in my food, who tripped me in the hallways, who started rumors and didn't care about what they said and how it might hurt me.

I wont be that person anymore either.

I wish you so much strength and will be here in my corner of the world cheering you on.
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Pt 2: To get to my point, I don't think kids are innocent for very long anymore and why not give them the tools they need to make informed decisions? It doesn't mean they will, as my story so obviously indicates, but it worked for some of us. I mean hell, I went to the health department by myself when I was 14 and put myself on birth control. I knew I was going to have sex and I wanted to be in control of it, and because I knew what do to, where to go and how to protect myself I did. I took control and I never put myself in a situation where a boy could tell me he "didn't have a condom," because I did. I was a little crazy, and out of control, and wanting to be grown up before I ever should have been, but I guess what I am saying is teaching kids about sex isn't corrupting them, or stealing their innocence, it's empowering them and hopefully giving them what they need to keep themselves safe.
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PT. 1: I didn't even kiss a boy until the end of sixth grade, but here is the truth, I was a LATE bloomer by my classes standards. I remember the cool kids sitting in the back of class in 5th grade playing "truth or dare" and most of it involved kissing or the showing and touching of genitals. Yes, DURING CLASS. I went to a relatively small school, only 98 kids in my graduating class and I graduated in 2007 so it's not like this was too long ago. We had sex ed in sixth grade. And seventh. And eighth. AND AGAIN IN tenth. Still, at least three girls dropped out every year from pregnancy, not counting the girls who got pregnant and stayed in school.

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